I'm not sure what's wrong with me tonight. I'm feeling low and irritable today. Strong urges to self-harm are bugging me. It's been 3 months since I last did. I think I am feeling the effects of all the change. I want a tattoo, both because I love them and because it gives me a high. I went to a child's birthday party for a while today because I am friends with his mother. I felt very withdrawn and not wanting to be around people at all. I left early. I'm hoping it was just an off day. I don't want to end up in an episode. I was just in mixed in July.

Im not sure whats going on but I am afraid its not good.