I don't know what to do about it either. I'll be sitting with a friend having coffee and yet be miles away from the conversation stuck in the trauma and thinking about everything related to it or some aspect of it. Sometimes I end up tearing up and have to hide it quick, or even have to excuse myself to the bathroom (this happened during a break at class), then try and get it together, clean myself up, and numb it out somehow. It is out of context for the situation because I'm not totally there in the situation. Plus sometimes (this has not been so bad as of late), I'll totally miss a lot of what the other person said and it sucks having to ask a person all the time what they were just saying. I so not get the anger so most, mostly sadness. Last night out with a friend I had laughter totally out of context because I was thinking of a happy memory and it was hilarious for some reason. But I think my friend was talking about something totally serious and seemed really confused about me laughing but she laughed too. Totally lightened the whole mood of the thing, but still - was not really there so much....Guess what I'm saying is you are not alone and I understand a little. Not sure what to do about it though...

And also, trying to focus and read is atrocious for me! i'll read a word that will remind me of some aspect of the past trauma thing and then go off into a different space for who knows how long and it takes forever to read whatever it is I'm trying to! Do you have trouble with that as well?