Dear T: I wonder something about this t relationship. I really want to understand why and how it works. I don't get how us seemingly just sitting there talking has brought about so much change in me. Most recently the change I am seeing, is that I'm reaching out to friends and allowing myself to be vulnerable with them and it's helpful! Now I understand why they thank me for listening to them when I have! It's so good to be listened to and heard by the people you love. New for me to let them... but.... good just the same. Letting myself be loved is probably one of the best things I've learned how to do in our work together. I need to say that again. Letting myself be loved. That means I've internalized that I am worth being loved. Wow, how about that? And if I am worth being loved, then that means that I am good enough. And furthermore I have always been good enough, it's just that other people had their own problems and didn't know how to teach me that. Wow again. Am I really really finally ready to let that go?? The feeling of "not being good enough"? Am I finally ready to open that last door and let the real true me step through it at last?! Is that why the dream about all the doors on the ship? I guess we've been opening doors all this time getting closer and closer to letting out the real me. oh! the ship!! on water! I get it! Water being the unconscious. Like all this work we're doing is going down into the unconscious especially the journey work and the ship in the dream had those narrow staircases too. Wow I love dream work.