I'm so exhausted from hating the world. It's nearly 3pm and i'm still in bed, havent washed, changed or even brushed my teeth (which I'm normally obsessive about). My family don't understand what is going on with me and if I don't pull myself together before they get back from work, I'll get in bad trouble.

I've also got things I need to do, only phoning people and sorting things out, but I just can't seem to work anything out and just can't phone them. I can't make a decision even though it's obvious what I should do. I'm so scared of failing I just want to hide, do nothing, so I can't be wrong.

I can't actually think about or remember anything at the moment. I can't focus or do anything but lay in bed with my laptop and ramble on here. I don't even know what I'm saying, its just coming out. I thought my new antidepressants- setraline- were working, I've had a few alright days, and some where I guess I was slightly high, but its still more often than not that I just can't face the world and everything that goes with it.

I'll stop now.