I have had a lot of anger issues, inappropriate rages over my lifetime. With my social skills group sessions and role playing through difficult issues without getting angry I have learned a lot more control. However when I am hypomanic I have more trouble with it.

Also I have been getting a lot more control over the BPD reactions but they too increase with hypomania for me.

I don't get the feel good feelings so I don't have issues with taking meds. My depressions were so severe and I was so desperate that I came to terms of having to take meds a very long time ago. However the mood stabilizer struggle is so frustrating and I am so sensitive to side effects that I don't know if I have hope of finding one that works. I think I have been on almost all of them. My pdoc said we may have to start retrying ones. It feels hopeless to me at this point.