I am deeply in love with a man who reicks havoc on my life. Yes I am on SSD, for schizoaffective disorder, not taking meds, not hearing voices or anything but stressed.

My husband is a gambler, we are legally homeless, always broke, account always overdrawn. Oh btw it's 2:15 am, over 4 hours ago he sent my daughter and I back to room so he could play $25 on keno. I kept my daughter up, which she loved, until midnight waiting for his return, so he wouldn't disturb her sleep. Now mine is being disturbed.

Everything, everyone says leave. I am thinking hard about it, but I really do love him. He won't get help, dreams of being a world series of poker winner.

Poker is in his blood. His mom deals poker, her boyfriend, a former pit-boss, met her at a casino. The family plays constantly. I believe he should follow his dream, but not at the expense of life.

I cannot reach him, page him, nothing because his phone is with me, and the casino no longer pages people. I left him 3 days ago, only to return. Tonight I debate about contacting my mom, this is too much for me to deal with. She did say I could return, but how do you let go of love?