Yes thats exactly right, Innerzone. I was so afraid to open this thread back up as if people were going to be all judgmental but I am glad I did. I keep forgetting this community doesnt treat me like other people do. Theres so much understanding, more than I truly expected. Thank you

Alwayschanging2, thank you for the link Im definitely going to check it out

Mountainbard, thank you for saying that. I thought it was something i should have just known about myself and felt stupid for just now realizing this. And thanks for the kind words