I often wonder what it all means? In the past I've become obsessed in a higher being and deeper meaning to life. I was able to feel so vibrant, intuitive and divine. Able to almost feel Gods presence everywhere I go, seeing signs.
And then depression hits and all of that disappears.

It has left me understanding that there's more to life.

Was it actually a spiritual awakening? It is possible. There's much information on psychosis/mania being misunderstood and actually being something spiritual. Western culture denies this and right everything off as delusional and give us meds so we can appear normal.