please get some professional help !!!!! it sounds like it to me that you're overwhelmed about life in general. it happens to the best of us.im like that too but im in treatment now . my therapist and I we get along . whenever I have a crisis on my hands I call my therapist whenever she is available to talk to me . I too have anxiety and depression . I was diagnosed by my therapist last year when she did her intake interview with me and again w the psychological evaluation that she had done to me last year w ptsd .
Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds : Cymbalta 60 mgs at night
Vistaril 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia