Thank you for your reply, it's nice to know that other people out there understand. And no, I'm not on any medication. About a year ago my 15 year old brother kind of went through a phase. He was diagnosed with anxiety, but took everything a little too far. My parents made sure he was getting medication and going to therapy, but then he decided to tell the school counselor that he was going to kill himself. He also was self harming (as were all his friends). So the counselor freaked out and they called 911. My brother was in the ER for over a day, when they decided to send him to a facility over an hour away. Our health insurance wasn't great at the time, and so the ER visit, ambulance ride to the facility, and his week long stay there overwhelmed my parents. I think they're still paying it all off. It was a traumatic experience for the whole family. I myself was going through a tough time, and after several years of dealing with my anxiety and depression alone, i had reached a point where I wanted to talk to my parents about it and seek help. But then the whole thing with my brother happened. I didn't wanna cause more trouble for them. My parents are separated and that whole thing somehow managed to make things even worse between them. I'll be 18 in December, so I'm just waiting until then to seek help for myself.