Hey y'all, the past few years on meds, I've been really stagnant like....no pulses of inspiration and goal oriented crusades. These moments have shaped my life and taken me places that have been very beneficial to my economic situation, daily routine, and sense of accomplishment (not mentioning the flip side of it).

The only culprit I can figure to the cause of this dead zone I'm floundering in is meds. It makes me feel placid, a lack of want to and desire. It has ran my ship aground. It's wrecked me financially and physically because I momentarily have a spark that's quick to fizzle and fade away. I feel inert.

In a sense, it's causing me grief and depression. I feel suspended in quicksand, drowning and not caring.

I've also gained weight.....lots of weight. I'm so tempted to just hang it up and get back to the way it was....hopefully it'll be the way it was.

The plus that I have is I ultra rapid cycle which means I don't have long bouts of hypo or depression.....which is manageable- a 3 day cycle.

I tried adderoll for the boost, but I ended up eating it like candy so I quit that.

Does anyone have any experiences about it and how did it go for you?