Maybe it is... What a terrifying thought!

However, I'm choosing to believe that therapy is where my focus has needed to be for the last few years, even when the resources I've sunk into have come at the expense of other important things. I am going to decide that therapy has helped me reach a point where I am able to identify what I need and reach out and find/build community in (I hope) a healthy way.

It's entirely possible that this is a kind of rationalization. I believe in economics they call it a "framing effect of sunk cost" or something? Economists did I remember right? But I think psychologically, how we frame our past experiences and decisions, which elements of the truth we choose to prioritize in our narratives, give meaning to our lives and importantly, gives us opportunities to feel better about ourselves.

...And now I've digressed so badly that I've hijacked my own thread!