Yezeena,
I just wanted to come back and say a few words. You are special to us here. You are worth whatever effort it takes to get well, be well, stay well. I have been thinking of you and wondering how you are. I do not have the gift of just the right words. Let your heart lead you. If you need to cry, do it! If you need to just sit and allow yourself to truly feel the pain bottled up inside, then do it! I spent many years of my life bottling up so much hurt and pain. I could not let myself think about it, examine it, or feel it. It may sound odd to allow all that hurt to flood over you. It has helped me heal (I am still healing).