I say honesty is the best medicine. I know it's hard to do, but I think you have to. I had to do it with my husband with other things. I was so scared, but it was worth it in the end. Secrets have a way that are found out and it's better that you tell him than him finding out some other way. BTW, if you don't think you can talk to your T or pdoc about anything, then I would get new ones. Mine know everything and I have to have that so I get good advice and don't rely on my own judgement. Hugs.