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Originally Posted by coldwut
I think I pretty much just started to abuse drugs. I took some aspirin yesterday and today because a relative basically said that people like me (people with psychosis) turn out to be mass murderers because the last people that shot up schools were mentally ill, and that mentally ill people who were abused become abusers themselves.
I tried telling her that mentally ill people are more likely to be abused and that's when she said that they turn to be abusers themselves and that it's a lot of them that do and that prison is made up of 75% of them.
I already know I'm a terrible person and I'm even more terrible and weak for turning to pills to fix my problems. |
When it comes to addiction, there seems to be a never-ending cycle, doesn't there? You drink, for instance, to escape from a certain situation or state of mind, then once you've sobered up and are face-to-face with the shame and guilt of coping in such a destructive way, drink to escape from that.
The media paints people who turn to drugs as a way to cope with difficult environments-internal and external-as despicable, criminal scum which society must charitably give their condescension and pity.
It seems to me that you turned to aspirin because there didn't seem to be anyone else to turn to. I imagine you are already feeling rather frightened and isolated by your diagnosis; your family's ignorant remarks only exacerbated the issue. I also think it safe to assume you want attention, based upon the fact that you brought attention to your problem in such a public matter. And this is not a bad thing-we're all here because we want some form of attention. It simply means you need reassurance and a place to talk about your experience. That is the best combatant to an addiction. Support.
Also, please do not hold too much animosity towards your family's ignorant remarks. The media uses fear to manipulate the population and keep them from thinking. Fear of the unusual, the faraway, and the unknown. Psychosis is indeed a foreign, frightening thing. Even more frightening when it's not foreign. At their worst they are violent lunatics barking at the moon as they rip the face off an innocent; at their best they are pitiable rodents doomed to live in boxes and alleyways. I am not saying these things don't happen, just that if that is all the media portrays of the mentally ill, that is what society will associate the mentally ill with. And those who do arrive at such fates probably wouldn't have, had they been provided the proper care.
The best combatant to ignorance is knowledge. Educate them on the difference between a psychotic and a psychopath.
Because I believe the latter is more likely to commit mass murder.
I wish you the best.