Hi Amber,

Sounds like you're going through alot of emotional turmoil at the moment.

Sometimes when I'm overwhealmed it can be difficult for me to even know where to begin. I am sure that at times when you do things like baking, cleaning and organising - you are actually accomplishing something - even if you family do not acknowledge this. It's nice to be acknowledged for what we do so I'm sorry that this is not noticed.

You seem to be having emotional difficulty in your relationship with your husband. I'm just wondering if you're seeing anyone to help you manage these emotions and give you strategies for when you do feel overwhealmed, rather than kicking your husband out and telling him things that you may later regret. Distraction might help - if you feel that way is there something that you can do - for say 30 minutes - then come back to your husband and have a conversation with him when you are in a better frame of mind?

Alot of what you think may be in your imagination - the fear you feel when your husband is late from work does not seem to be substantiated by anything that you have mentioned in your thread. I get that you don't want to be alone so alternative behaviours (rather than threatening to hurt yourself) could help develop a more productive relationship. When you do feel the urge coming on to lash out at him pause and try a distraction technique and revisit the situation when you're calmer. Music helps settle me when I'm feeling a flood of emotions.