so ummm I cut really bad on my arm and I know I should go to the hospital but I cant cuz I cant handle being judged by them right now - it will just make things worse. it won't stop bleeding even after putting heaps of pressure on it, applying 2 tight bandages plus a tubular one. bleeding has slowed down but its still bleeding.

starting to freak out cuz I cant go to the hospital, I cant contact my therapist (24 hr rule) and I cant tell my gp cuz he will probably be booked out although I do have an apt with him on friday but I should just cancel it already.

I use to be so much stronger than this but I just cant do this anymore I cant. I am due to start groups next tues but I am freaking out about it as I havent done groups in forever and I always dissociate in a group setting

I feel so alone and scared and I just don't know. Shouldn't even be posting. Sorry