Hey, I've been meaning to post a reply to your post for a while now, I'm sorry it's taken me so long.

Clothes shopping is the worst! Especially online, it's so hard to find anything that fits and returning it is a pain. Although I think some online retailers provide free postage for returns (but I could be wrong about that).

And if you found a skirt that's nice and you like it, there's nothing wrong with wearing it, because it's still an expression of who you are, your tastes, feelings and identity.

And I know what you mean, sometimes I feel completely female, other times more male, sometimes both, and a lot of the times I just feel like an 'it', completely genderless and floating away from any sort of body identity at all. For me, I just try to enjoy and express the flow of all that as best I can.

I hope the rest of your stay with your husband's family won't be too uncomfortable and lonely. Be good to yourself! Feel free to send me a pm if you get too bored!