I used to have my life together, i knew what i wanted, where i wanted to go, how i wanted to life, who i wanted to be. Until some problems occured, so i had to give up my dream in my still early age and started working. And now 2 years have passed and i'm feeling stuck now. Nothing really has changed in my life so far. I tried to chase my dream again but all my efforts turned out wasted, so now i don't even care anymore yet it made me depressed. Painful reality. Changed job to a better one several times but still, nothing really changes. I tried to stay positive but it doesn't work anymore. Now i feel like so tired and empty, not motivated to do anything lately.

Now my everyday life is just working, eating etc yet i don't feel alive. I didn't even feel happy during holiday or trips. I often feel mad and self disappointment when i see or heard my friend's life because i spent my years feeling like i want to jump off a cliff while they having the time of their lives and being in love and achieved something better and i'm just kind of there. Dunno what am i doing with my life

idk if my my life is actually horrible or i'm just going through a scene phase.
Nothing good comes easily but idk it'd be this hard..