Lexi,

You've got to talk to somebody about it, honey. I know it's hard. But continuing to have that feeling that your dad is going to assault you, even though you know he isn't, is going to be harder on you in the long run. I wish that I knew how to help you with this, but it's something that you are going to need to work on in therapy. I can understand where that feeling is coming from - you just got in a situation with him, wrestling, where you had some feelings that reminded you of being assaulted, and it is perfectly understandable that you reacted to that the way you have, and it's not your fault or your dad's fault - it just happened. But in order to stop those dreams, and feel safe again, you are going to have to process those feelings.