I put it all out there, and I feel I was pretty clear.
"I need to get something off my chest. Last month was one of the most challenging times for me ever. Huge ups and downs. My home life turned upside-down, and it was very difficult to deal with, on top of being in the deepest depression of my life. I got to meet and spend time with a beautiful and intriguing woman, though, and that made things much better. You helped me through a very dark time, and I'll be forever grateful. There's a problem, though. I developed very strong feelings for you. Ones that I am afraid aren't reciprocated. I understand you have your own issues to deal with, but I think I need to be honest with you and with myself. I think I need to walk away. I'm falling in love with a woman who will probably never love me, and it's not healthy. I don't want to give up, but I also can't wait around hoping that one day you'll decide you want to be with me. This is really hard for me to do, but I hope you understand why I have to do it. If I'm making a huge mistake, please tell me. Otherwise, thank you for some amazing memories. The day at the aquarium was one of the best times I've ever had. Cruising around in the country in the Tahoe, dancing in the headlights, the airshow, Red Balloon, I'll never forget any of it. You're beautiful and smart, and I am lucky to have had the opportunity to spend time with you at all."
To which she replied (predictably):
"Okay... Wow. Can I have a while to digest that before replying?"
That's what she always says when I try to explein to her how I feel about her. Yet she never addresses it. It is never "digested," she just ignores it like nothing happened. I'll be interested to see what she says here, if anything.
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