My T isn't helping, and I'm starting to feel like I can't be candid with her. It's a long story, but there is a reason I'm seeing her, and she has been seeing me without charge for two months. She will be getting paid starting this month. On the one hand I am very appreciative of what she has done. She hasn't really done anything "wrong". On the other, I really need someone I can feel a connection with and who will be warm, sympathetic, and understanding. More than anything right now I need support. Unfortunately, she is a little too much like my mother. I need someone to hold my hand, not correct my thinking. She does try to say the right thing, but it seems rehearsed, rather than genuine.

I feel so bad about the situation because she hasn't even been paid yet. If I could reimburse her, I'd look for someone else right away. (Initially she thought she would see me free for a few sessions, which turned into a month, and then two - because of insurance.). I honestly think there is something about me that bothers her, something specific, which makes me think she wouldn't mind if I stopped going. However, I still feel like it would be cold to leave her right when she is actually getting paid.

The thing is, how am I supposed to tell her, "I need sympathy not solutions, and you don't seem genuine.", especially when she has been so generous with her time. She means well, but we're not connecting. I'm very lonely and alone right now, pretty depressed, and feeling rejected. The last thing I want is have a conflict or personal discomfort with my T!

Beyond needing sympathy, the other big problem is that it's really difficult for me to talk about myself. I need someone to draw me out, ask questions, etc., but she seems to put too much burden on me to explain things, rather than helping me to do so.