Regarding your last paragraph, I'm exactly the same way. And my T didn't get it for a long time which led to a lot of sessions that were mostly me being quiet and her getting frustrated. I finally had to tell her that I can't talk about myself and I need her to draw it out of me and to ask me the hard questions. T finally understood and things have gotten a much better. I'm glad I told my T about needing her to get me to talk instead of just giving up. My relationship with her has been rewarding because of this change in my time with T. Thought I would share my experiences. Good luck with your T!