It's over.

I regret not trying harder. This will be the one that got away. Maybe if I worked more she would have loved me and I wouldn't have had to leave. Maybe if I made more of an effort to show her my love she wouldn't have pushed back so hard. How do I continue to have a friendship with her sister, who is great and has really looked out for me through all of this. How do I continue to develop a friendship with her parents? They were awesome to me, and her father supports me in a way I can hardly explain. He always had encouraging things to say to me; I'm in the middle of a HUGE career change, moving into the field from which he just retired and he always had a tip for me, or the name of someone I need to contact. He is my "in," and in the line of work I'm going into, it REALLY all about who you know...and he was really high up.

I'm going to miss her so much, and if she misses me even a little, she sure as hell won't be telling me. That hurts.