do you remember why you started, and how it felt the first time?

for me, the first time felt .. i don't like to use the word great, but it felt natural. like i was waiting for that relief for ages and ages, and i knew i'd found something that works for me. (even if it is unhealthy)

i started after my family refused to support me, and said they wanted nothing to do with my issues. i found a sharp thing in the room i was in and just went for it.

yeah.. what about you?