i worry the same way not being ocd. i just had a ptsd incident and that has always led to a mania in the past. my t got upset with me for flipping out the other day that i am going to get manic. how can i not when i have always got manic in the past?????

so i see your worry. you do well on medication and then your t takes it away and your ocd comes back. you were doing well and now it is being reduced again. i would worry to. it has happened every time. i dont think you are thinking irrationally. you have history to support your thoughts.

these t's with their "happy thoughts" expecting us to think things are going to be different. grrrrr