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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23
Chickenfoot: Why do you want to try something that could make your symptoms worse? I'm just curious because I really don't understand. You were diagnosed with drug induced psychosis, right? And you were just on about tapering off your AP, yet now you're intending to take drugs again?? For me, had I ever taken drugs, I know that I would definitely be wondering if my difficulties would've been reduced had I NOT taken drugs? I guess I'm just confused...
I will admit that I've never taken recreational drugs and so I genuinely don't understand the appeal - is it boredom? Isn't there anything else you could do if you're bored? Hobbies? Volunteer work? A part-time job?
Are you not concerned that it would make things worse? I know you've been researching, but there are never any guarantees with any drug, recreational or otherwise. My uncle died accidentally OD'ing on the same amount of heroin & alcohol & benzos he took every day. You hear of people taking ecstasy all the time and their friend tries it once and dies. There's many stories like that.
I don't think it's a good idea, but if you're really going to do it anyway, definitely ensure there is someone around to call for help if you need it. And I think you should also be charting your drug taking with your symptoms because, from reading your posts, I definitely think there is a correlation between your drug use and an increase in symptoms.
Stay safe.
*Willow*
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I take drugs primarily out of boredom, curiosity, the intense euphoria and empathy that the likes of MDMA provides. I can be so mindful when I'm on MDMA, I listen to the music, stay in the present, appreciate everything around me, it's fantastic. I can be mindful without drugs but there's something about MDMA that gets me. I haven't done it in a long time, not since before Christmas I don't think. I've never done LSD.
This is going to be a face palm moment for a lot of people here so hang on to your seats!
I want to go off my AP so I can feel the full effects of MDMA and LSD. There you go, I know that's a bit ridiculous but I just want to get high, not abuse drugs, I've never done that but to use them recreationally, a couple of times a year would be nice. I don't really see anything bad coming of that really,
yeah it's arguable that my psychosis was drug induced but I've had symptoms while off drugs and have had no symptoms after some drugs. I mean my psychiatrist was so concerned I'd come back from amsterdam psychotic, he said he could almost guarantee a psychotic episode if I went over and smoked a lot of weed. Well I'm back about two weeks and am doing just fine.
I appreciate your concern and I'll be sure to stay safe!