I really know I can't complain, compared to many others..I have a job, health insurance, roof over my heaf, food, and little bit to spend on extras...and I tell God/universe all the time how thankful I am...because I know it could be worse. Then on my depressed days-I am jealous if siblings, coworkers, friends, even strangers who seem to have it all, seem happy and don't seem to struggle. If course my rational side knows I have no idea what goes on behind closed doors but my negative voice says...why can't my lufe be a little more together..why out of my whole family-am I the bipolar one, the one with weight issues, less pretty, etc
I get out mt journal and do the pos/neg columns to show how good I do have it...but do any of you ever wondet why you/we have these issues...then I again say, ok universe, its not cancer or aids so I should be grateful I am functional
Anyone else ever get this way....