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Originally Posted by healingme4me
That's your life choice. The end part seems rather fatalistic.
I, personally, rather enjoy the growth of intimacy, as the years progress. There's something, at least for me, about the ability to become vulnerable as time moves forward. It's rather sweet in being able to read another's body language after time spent bonding. To know from a glance when tired and hunger is about to settle in. Or how quirks can grow on you, instead of being what would initially be petty annoyances, left unspoken due to not wanting to risk abandonment.
Friendzoning someone, out of fear. Tough debate, since there's a chance you could be missing out on so much more.
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In the end, we all die. Why does it matter who is at my side when it happens? Dying alone can't be any worse than the suffering that I've already endured. Besides, I plan on using my ambition, high intelligence, brilliant imagination, and fierce independence to do something awesome for the world which people will remember for a long time. Why be loved by one when I could be loved by billions?
I'm just now beginning to see that emotional attachments and long term relationships are a threat to my ambitions, therefore, I seek more friends and allies along with short term relationships to sate my loneliness and physical needs. Plus when/if I do become rich, I could have a form of love without the risk of betrayal. If you have the money, you can get people to do anything you want.
Not to mention, I want to be strong and independent and not vulnerable and bound to another person. I don't want to need anybody no matter what. I don't want to be hurt ever again by anybody else other than myself.
Of course, I have very limited experience with relationships because I've never been in one for any more than a few months, so it's entirely possible that I'm simply overthinking this subject.
Regardless, thanks for your insight!
