Thank you for your reply. There is however one thing i can't agree.

Actually, no. I have absolutely no fear of being alone right now, in fact if we were to break up, i would want to be alone for the foreseeable future. I am perfectly able to support myself finacially as well. What i am terrified from is the prospect of having someone suffer because of me. I am affraid of making the wrong decision. I am affraid she'll call me within a few hours of us breaking up and i know i won't be able to NOT go back to her. I am affraid to turn off my phone and triggering some sort of reaction on her part where she hurts herself. I am affraid that it'll take quite some time to move things out of the house and in the meantime we'll have to deal with each other and i can't deal with that. I'm affraid of many things, but not of being alone and independent. In this precise moment, i crave it, i believe i need it, but i'm too much of a coward.