Hello freewill:
I know you probably feel like you've been "run" over. That's how I felt too. I should mention, the girlfriend I have is MARRIED too. So am I!! She's younger than me, but I do not care. There was just something about her that I wanted
for myself. Her love!! to tell you the truth. I can't explain it any better than that. Like I said, I didn't understand the feelings I was having for her. I had a "gay" female friend at the bar I played at one time ask me the same thing...." do you have feelings for her you DON'T understand"? I lied as I didn't want her to think I'm in the closet. I'm NOT gay. Never have been. Never wanted to be. I just like women more than men at times. It sounds dirty now when I think about it. I have to get over that. I'm not that way. Sounds like I'm trying to convince myself. Doesn't it?
Well, that's what I meant to say last night. Now we have a good understanding of each other. However: there is a part of me that seems always on the side of caution to take it easy so this doesn't get out of hand again. I'm always afraid she's going to leave me. Maybe it's just me, though?