Thanks everybody for your replies.

No, I wasn't really able to express my sadness. I admit I was actually glad when I was in my session and realized I wasn't going to break down and cry. It's something I have to work on, but wasn't ready to do that yet. Of course, she definately knows how sad, angry, scared, anxious, depressed (LOL anything else!) I am right now. I can talk about that verbally, just can't exhibit those emotions right in front of her. I guess I do show anxiety in front of her, but not so much the other ones.

We're going to try some new techniques to help deal with all this, so I'll let you know how it goes.