Hi Monokuma

I'm sorry that things are not so good for you. But there has been progress you have stuck with employment and even got a better job. But perhaps more is needed. This could be having a consuming passion for something in life, such as a charitable cause that attracts or reconnection with something that fired you up earlier.

I know that your friends and people you know seem to be having a great time. But in reality you can be sure that they have their problems. to deal with. Also. And I often wonder whether those people who seem to be having such success would have done even half as good or been able to function at all. Had they had the depression we have to deal with.
However, with good medication and therapy skills to deal with the depression quality of life always does improve. I hope and pray it will for you soon. Have a really great day. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis