I know that feeling. I hadn't realised I felt that way until I started therapy and felt that I wasn't alone any more. I'm guessing it stems, for me at least, from being left alone as a baby and toddler. Friendships and my husband have not alleviated it. It's only the closeness of being with a T that has met some need that I didn't even know I had.

I saw on a different thread that you were looking for a new T, did I miss you posting on what is happening with your current T?