As I understand it, in no way is one's soul affected by chemicals.

You claim that medication is not an option, but you're shooting yourself in the foot. If you'd just give meds a try for a few days you'd discover that you've been in a downward spiral of obsessive, possibly delusional thinking that is creating a huge problem for you, then feeding into the problem until you're a hairballed mess of anxiety.

I believe that you are exactly the kind of person medication can help.