This is a very difficult thing for me to post, but I really need some suggestions and support.

I was raped on my 21st Birthday. My 25th is this Sunday.

I have always hurt myself ( quite badly) when my birthday comes around, and I'm really scared that I will hurt myself again this year.

I don't have any real support here, and no friends (except for some amazing people i've met on this site)

I've tried talking to my T about how Im feeling but she was really dismissive.

I want to stop my birthday from being a day where I relive what happened over and over and turn it into what it should be, a celebration of life, another year I've survived. I just don't know how to do it.

Any suggestions would be fantastic. Thanx.