i was raped once before and i know that it doesnt go away. and no i dont wish to be miserable. and im sorry that when i reported the first rape the cops just said i shouldnt have been friends with someone who would do such a thing. i live in a small town outside of chicago and the police dont do %#@&#! if you have a record...my record has been bad since i was 11. now i have stuff from runaway to battary to truencey. and i know that that stuff is my fault but being raped isnt my fault and i will always know that because i know what it does to you if you think it was your fault.
my next t appt is in one day, im going to tell him, he will tell my parents, my parents will tell the police...my parents dont have records so the police will work with them. im not doing this because i dont want people to feel sorry for me, im doing it this way so something will be done to this guy.
ive been through this before...and im not going to let things end the way they did 2 years ago.