Hi silentlyscreaming,
I went back into therapy today for my incest and childhood sexual abuse issues, just to let you know that i can relate. but about the anniversary coming up..i have a similar situation in that i have a painful anniversary coming up on friday, my son's anniversary of his death. He took his life 14 years ago july 27th. it's gets really painful and my life gets crazy days, sometimes weeks before. this friday, i asked my grandson, his friend, and my nephew to come over to my place. i'm going to make hot wings and we'll watch a movie together. this is the first time in 14 years that i ever asked anyone to be with me. i usually suffered alone. i feel so loved and supported. it won't take the pain away, but it'll make it easier to bear. is there anyone that you feel safe enough with to ask to just be with you? doing something simple, that doesn't take too much energy. maybe a movie, some pizza at home. so that you are not alone, and that you are with someone who loves you and will just be there for you. don't suffer alone the way that i did so many years. you deserve to be supported and cared for.
God bless,
dorsey