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Originally Posted by Cinnamon_Stick
I am sorry you are struggling. I don't think you can pay someone to care. You pay your therapist to help you and listen to you but you can't pay for feelings. Feelings come on there own. A therapist doesn't have to care about you, yes they should and its part of being a therapist, but to truly care about someone is something that comes on its own despite that you are paying to see a T.
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Ur right. I'm just feeling sorry for myself. If he cares I'm sure it's for free. I care about him! I'm just sure too that I'm a lot to deal with. There's no one clambering to spend time with me. Hopefully his fees are compensation enough.
It seems like everything I do is wrong and every problem I have is my fault, somehow. And I will also say, nothing I try works, not meds not therapy not volunteering, not trying to be social, not working or working harder, not taking time off, vacations, not concerted efforts to think of others, not helping others, not reading self help, not yoga, etc. I just wish sometime I could find a solution. Since I'm so difficult for people.
I wouldn't wish the way I feel on anyone. I'm afraid of my depression now, and afraid to even talk about it because quite frankly no one wants to hear it, and why would they.