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Originally Posted by Leah123
Well, let me ask... when you volunteered, for how long was that? (Just wondering if you gave it time, or the other efforts, I've heard creating those habits and reaping the benefits can take a good while.)
As for small goals... well, an example would be complimenting someone randomly during the day, reaching out to one person for help in a small way, telling a coworker you're feeling low and asking if they could share one thing they like about you because you're just having one of those mornings where you can't see it, paying for the coffee of the person behind you in line...
just a tiny little pebble thrown into the river. (And without expectations.)
And I would also take some time and meditate or write on the topic of moments of kindness you've experienced from others- each of us reaching out to help you at PC, try to list all the names in a given week or month by reviewing your post history, past teachers, coworkers, aquaintances, whomever, whatever... a... deliberate weaving together of a metaphorical shawl of kindness to wrap yourself in.
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Thanks. Maybe volunteering did help. I've done various forms of volunteering and being on charity boards. I suppose I have made some shallow "friendships" acquaintances doing that. More recently I worked with kids and I did feel like that did something for me. It was hard on one hand, I'm very sensitive so I would feel really bad for these kids, but I think it was good for me too.
I should do a major gratitude list, yes. I know I'm just in a seriously toxic thought pattern. Got in a big fight this weekend trying to reach out for more intimacy with my spouse and instead he threw something at me, I'm not hurt, I'm just in that sick shock feeling as if someone died almost. I'm just in a tailspin and too tired to pull out. Thanks though Leah
