Do this with me, take one big gulp regular one then swallow. Works for me everything. Just because it is so, so much doesn't mean it has to be outlet . Why do you think it should be expressed? NO, really I want to hear the answer on why. Maybe someone else handles it in the moments for you, right? Okay, that's me. There is nothing wrong with being numb. Are you going around making other feel bad for their lack of numbness? I keep getting my story out but I just want this numbness or what it is? Why is it even necessary to express no numbness? It is a power struggle that I hope people can be delivered from its scary weird God knows uncalled for only makes one person suffer. It can cause a person their live all cause you felt you had this mutual respect u took it too far. Now my life is messed up. My kids hate me for it now, you happy? I'm going to defer then to you the process I will make sure they never trust a soul all cause of what happened to mommie. How is that ministry and help it isn't. Go away....These type of people or no better than offenders if you ask me.