I feel like I'll never leave my mark on the world. I have no friends, no talents, skills, etc.... I was never diagnosed but I think I have social anxiety, and it would explain my poor social life. I literally have almost no friends at all, and I have no one that I can call or hang out with. I'm not saying that I want to hurt myself because I don't, but if I died right now, outside of my family, no one would care at all. That's a pretty extreme thing to say but it's true. I have made no impact on anyone's life. I'm 18, I have a good family, a great mother who provides me with everything that I need, and live in a good home, so on the outside, my life would look pretty good. It's not that simple though. Sometimes I get so angry and wonder why I have to be this way. I'm poor in social situations and I have no friends. I have never had a girlfriend before and I wish I knew what it was like to have that sort of companionship. I don't seem to be good at anything either. My school grades aren't very good, I tried sports but I'm bad at them, I have no friends, I don't really have anything to be proud of. Again, I'm not suicidal at all and I have never self-harmed before or even thought about doing it but I don't want to live the rest of my life this way.