First up; no one trusts anyone 100%, even people without M/H issues. It's always something people worry about, but when it prevents you living your life in a healthy way, then it becomes a problem.

So it sort of leaves you with two options; carry on the way you are and keep everything in as much as possible and try to keep on carrying the weight of the world until something cracks and then because you are seen as unable to cope, someone else has to step in and take responsibility as you have not been able to...

Or you can try to get your voice heard, say how you feel, say how you want things to be, how you don't want things to be, what the problems were last time and why they affected you. What you feel is helpful, what is unhelpful and how and what you find difficult.

Balls in your court the way I see it from here, it's up to you if you want to take charge of your life or if you want to wait for someone else to. I know what I'd rather do...