But that is the thing it isnt just me it isnt my life i dont get to choose because i dont matter and even if it was i dont know how i feel or what i want or what would help no one cares about my voice. It isnt that i dont want to feel better but i am not allowed to they wont let me it has never been just my life the things that live inside me have always had the first say and if i try and do anything about it bad things happen but i doubt anyone will believe me no one ever believes me. It doesnt matter anymore it has already been decided. I am sorry for wasting your time.