Dear uni therapist,

You say that I resist affection, that I simply reject it, which is true, and you also acknowledge the reasons why I do it; it's foreign to me, I don't know what to do with it, and I really don't think I deserve it. But you have no idea how much I actually want it, and how much I wish I could accept it from you. The problem with the latter is that it scares me, because I know there's a limit and an expiration date to it.