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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
For those that know...is it stressful? Do you find yourself? Can it be done unaided? What's the process? Do the memory gaps disappear? Are your days like normal? Do you feel like one person all the time? Etc.
A descriptive response is most desired. Thank you.  |
For me it is very stressful. It feels so weird to me. My T described it like a balloon that's full of air you get so use to feeling like that floaty and disconnected. That when you integrate the balloon goes back to its natural shape which feels different because you've been functioning the other way so long.
After I've done some integration I find that I'm better for a while. There are more times lately that I feel like a whole person than not. Of course at times I still dissociate but it lasts for less time than it use to and the feelings don't scare me as much as they did. I'm about to start back with some more integration work and it scares me as it feels very destabilizing for a bit but after it's been nice to feel whole for a while. I hope this helps!