Hi Chloe

I know just how you feel. I was in hospital some years ago and didn't want to go back out into the community at all. But I had to go. I think when you spend that time in hospital you become dependent on the staff to do most things for you. And then wonder how you will manage on your own. Perhaps if you started to put a plan in place. You could start listing the type of problems you would confront. Then start with the easiest and work out a solution for it which will give you the confidence to work through the rest in order of increasing difficulty. If you have difficulty coming up with solutions to any of these problems. You can always ask the staff there for advice.

I am sorry that your old psychologist let you down. But do you know why he was not able to be there for you? There may have been a good reason. And asking him did anything happen that prevented him from seeing you might be a good way of approaching it.

However, since you are in Australia you would know about GROW which is a mental health recovery group, which has its own manual for recovery. And you get plenty of support and help from the other members. Googling GROW in Australia will bring up their website. Many people have recovered significantly using their methods. And I am in one of their groups in Ireland.
You can get good self-help literature on how to manage depression and anxiety from the public library and from Amazon. CBT is very good as is acceptance and commitment therapy, which I use. Even googling managing depression and anxiety brings up very helpful information. I really hope and pray going home and back to work will work very well for you. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis