Hi Elisa.

Sometimes experiences are so traumatic that we unconsciously repress them till the time is right to recall them. So don't worry. Eventually, these memories will resurface. I do feel that the feeling of being given a second chance was actually true. Anyone who survives an attempt is automatically given one. I am sorry that your situation is not good at the moment. Have you got good therapy? Or do you think that the medication needs looked at. What do you think could be done to improve your situation? I really hope and pray everything will work out well for you. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis