At my last session T gave me an assignment to think of 5 questions to ask her next session.
I told her about having conversations with other people and that I do talk to them if they ask me questions or involve me in the conversation, but if they don't then I'll stay quiet. And so she thought this would be a good and ''fun'' assignment for me.
It's probably a good excersize for me.

I asked her what kind of questions I should ask, about what should I ask. She said I can decide that.
And that makes it hard for me. I can think of several things I want to know/ask. But I'm so scared to ask a wrong question. I'm scared she will think it's weird for me to ask or to ask a question she doesn't want to answer. I'm not thinking about a specific question, I won't ask something that's isn't appropriate. But I'm scared that whatever I'll ask will be somehow wrong.
And that's why I almost never ask people questions. The only people I do ask questions are my parents and two friends. But other then with them I don't ask people with who I'm having a conversation questions.

I almost never ask my T questions. Only when I want her to clarify something she ask (because with some questions I'm afraid I didn't understand it right and then I'm afraid to give a wrong answer). Last session was the first time that I ask her if she's going away in her vacation. I never dared to ask her that, even though I'm curious about it.

Not sure what I want with this post. I want to ask her why she chose to become a therapist. I've been wanting to ask that for a long time. But I'm not sure what else. And it also feels weird to ask her things, because I almost never ask her questions.

That such an excersize can give me so much worry and anxiety.