So I am not the host, and I guess I am an ANP. So T had been away for 2 weeks and today was our session and her first day back. Things are unexplainable and so she asked to speak to our little one whom is about 4. While talking to T 4 said she missed T and lately there has been a " voice" that seems to be harsh and yet truthful regardless of who she talks to. Internally she pointed out to 4 that T did not acknowledge that 4 missed her. And that is what she has been trying to tell the system that T like everyone else in life can not be trusted, so this got 4 upset. So told T. Which T confirmed she can not be 4's mom. That 4 is in the mind of a much older woman and so forth. Then as a way to end the conversation, another voice step in with " if you slap yourself she will end session" within five minutes the slap happened and T ended session. I am an ANP, usually don't feel left over emotions and all but I am feeling this and see 4 extremely upset, and hurt. The older teens and toddlers now fear T feels this way about all of them. No one wants to see T anymore. Although the host may want to but hasn't been around for like 2 months or so. Suppose to see T Friday am. Sent email saying it may be our last session. I feel badly for the system, and don't really know what to do. Never been in a position like this before. If I slip away the teens will take over and I see it not being good. Supposedly there are like two or three that self harm and a few that drink ...worst case is they engage in that stuff to deal with their pain and hurt over what they think T really feels now. Like 6 months ago she gave 4 a blankie for comfort and another young part asked for her perfume so we can make the blankie smell like her of course now the blankie and perfume bottle have been put up and kinda want to give it back to T but not sure about that either. I don't have the thoughts of what these little ones are having or teenagers but I feel the pain all over the body and am uncomfortable with it.
I know T was the only support for Host now she will be most surprised if its gone. no one wants to acknowledge T or have to see her Friday.

Has anyone been through something like this where it seems now T is not being there? 4 loved T now hates her. I am at a loss as what to do. This system is mainly teens and young parts.

Please no harsh words feeling very down and unmotivated to do the adult things needed to be done. Feeling glum.